I shared what I have. been going through, as I do my best to face the world today. I hope that my podcast diary entry gives you permission to also share whatever you might be going through...
What we "go through" in the seconds and centuries of our lives is so multitudinous that these experiences can be hard to distill. For me, I am torn between the career path I have placed myself (the law) and the creative passion I desire to pursue (writing).
I am a good lawyer and have checked the boxes a young litigator should check in order to be seen as successful by those in this profession. But I am also a good writer, and have been privileged with some amazing opportunities.
I am at the crossroads, now, of a life that suffers under the weight of its own expectations. Do I continue down the road I walk? Or do I live in fidelity with what is in my heart? Every decision - every change - is not without loss. But the fear of such loss - financial, professional, social - can paralyze what would otherwise be an easy action.
The ebb and flow of growing up is tough. It was as tough at 16, 17, and 18 in your classroom as it is at 30 in our apartments and offices. And the students you taught all have a lot in common - answers came easy and we often excelled in the certain metrics Glenbard South cared about that made us stand out from our peers.
It is only as we grow do we realize that the answers we now seek don't often come easy. Not even the ones that should come easy ever reveal themselves to be a such. And when it comes to who I want to be - what I want to pursue and create and put into this world - I'm not sure that I have that answer, yet.